hi diaries! (yes, i’ve officially decided to call you that)
first of all, i’m sorry for disappearing for the past 4 months. your SN has been busyyy—like super. clinical duties, requirements, and guess what… I finally had my exposure in the ER for 3 weeks!!!
and honestly? it was the best thing that happened to my year so far. i’m so grateful. (claiming good results for PNLE this September pls 🥹)
i was complimented in the ER, had the best experience, and it really confirmed something in me—I want to be an ER nurse. the rush, the patients in pain, inserting IVs, the kaba in every CPR… it’s exhausting, yes, but it’s the kind of tired that still makes me want to wake up and do it all over again. no burnout, just passion.
i also finished my completion duty—COMPLETED my cases!! thank you, Lord 🤍
our nursing seminar? WOW. we really did that. from something that felt impossible to something we made happen. we gave it our all for our last year, and COPAR made me emotional. it was tiring—meetings, painting every night—but it was all worth it. it was successful. thank you, Lord again.
my grades in CA also improved so much. from thinking i wouldn’t pass or graduate on time… to actually making it. that alone feels surreal.
march tested me emotionally. i didn’t allow myself to feel anything for a while… until one day, it all hit me. i was tired. i was overthinking constantly. there was even a moment i thought about ending everything—but i didn’t. i cried it all out instead. and i think… i did well. i survived those days.
thank you, Lord.
there was also a misunderstanding with my friends… and no, we’re not okay.
i didn’t like how things were handled, especially when they chose not to talk to me. it hurt more than i expected.
my birthday passed without even a greeting, even though they promised me a cake and flowers. that part stayed with me. i was bitter, i was hurt… and honestly, part of me is still not over it.
but right now, i’m choosing to focus on myself. i’m not forcing anything anymore. maybe time will fix it, maybe it won’t—but i’m learning to be okay either way.
but HEY—
I’M ABOUT TO GRADUATE ON APRIL 24!!!!! 😭🤍
please, Lord, let me graduate in peace. currently stressing over my thesis hardbound (PLS) and PRC forms—but we’re almost there!!!
that’s all for my 4 months of ghosting.
to more ghosting? hahaha jk. i’ll try to write again before or after graduation.
xoxo,
your favorite student nurse in town 🤍
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